I’m trying to be more responsible, but I’m finding it very difficult. I guess I have just been so irresponsible for my whole life that it’s something that is really hard to reform. No one in my life has ever depended on me so much. I don’t like it. I don’t want to have people depending on me. I don’t want my actions to have repercussions on other people. What I do each day should not adversely affect anyone. I’m not the kind of person you want to depend on. I drink too much and can’t seem to stop for any extended period of time. I feel like my smoking habits are going to cost me when I don’t believe they should. I don’t want to do anything that directly hurts other people, but our culture and system makes it that way. I just want to be left to myself. I want to be able to get away and just do what I want. Some may say that it’s selfish, and maybe it is, but who cares? If I was not around, people would just go about their days like normal. I wish I could be self-sufficient. I want to have a ranch with a small farm to grow personal things. I want to be able to work for what I have directly. I don’t want to have anyone depending on me for support, love, money, or anything else. Maybe I’m afraid of responsibility or maybe I am just a different kind of person.
Why is it frowned upon to contribute nothing to society? A lot of people go through life thinking that they are contributing when all they are doing is paying taxes so that leeches can continue to thrive. If I left this place, if I went away to an independent place where there is no government or regulation and I lived there providing for myself and enjoying myself, who can tell me that I’m wrong. Granted I like to have the amenities that this country provides, but I think I’d be happy to give most of it up for the opportunity to get away and no longer be a part of this world. I want to live in a new world, where the problems and shit of this world do not affect me. I wish I could start somewhere new. Start a world that exists to only me and anyone else with like ideals. I don’t want to save this world. I don’t care if the Muslims want to destroy Israel and I don’t care if the Russians nuke themselves. I don’t care and I don’t want to be a part of it.
There must be something I can do that people will pay me for. I mean besides prostitution. What makes those monkeys on TV and in the movies better than anyone else? Why are they paid so much and given so much attention? Who gives a shit what Miley Cirus is doing? Not me. But if you want to give me a whole bunch of money to prance around in front of a camera reciting lines I’ve memorized on a script, by all means, continue. I want to be able to save money and make my dream a reality and leave this world. I don’t want to know what is going on in Washington. I don’t want to know about all the refugees in Haiti and the rest of the world. I don’t want to see and hear about all the mistreated pets that need homes and depend on my $5 a month. I’m tired of the government and companies trying to manipulate me into feeling empathy and desire where it has no reason to exist. This world creates want. I do not want to be a part of it. I’m moving to Costa Rica, starting a plantation and I will exist free of outside stimulus. My world will be my friends and family. I’ll send food to the refugees.
Why is it frowned upon to contribute nothing to society? A lot of people go through life thinking that they are contributing when all they are doing is paying taxes so that leeches can continue to thrive. If I left this place, if I went away to an independent place where there is no government or regulation and I lived there providing for myself and enjoying myself, who can tell me that I’m wrong. Granted I like to have the amenities that this country provides, but I think I’d be happy to give most of it up for the opportunity to get away and no longer be a part of this world. I want to live in a new world, where the problems and shit of this world do not affect me. I wish I could start somewhere new. Start a world that exists to only me and anyone else with like ideals. I don’t want to save this world. I don’t care if the Muslims want to destroy Israel and I don’t care if the Russians nuke themselves. I don’t care and I don’t want to be a part of it.
There must be something I can do that people will pay me for. I mean besides prostitution. What makes those monkeys on TV and in the movies better than anyone else? Why are they paid so much and given so much attention? Who gives a shit what Miley Cirus is doing? Not me. But if you want to give me a whole bunch of money to prance around in front of a camera reciting lines I’ve memorized on a script, by all means, continue. I want to be able to save money and make my dream a reality and leave this world. I don’t want to know what is going on in Washington. I don’t want to know about all the refugees in Haiti and the rest of the world. I don’t want to see and hear about all the mistreated pets that need homes and depend on my $5 a month. I’m tired of the government and companies trying to manipulate me into feeling empathy and desire where it has no reason to exist. This world creates want. I do not want to be a part of it. I’m moving to Costa Rica, starting a plantation and I will exist free of outside stimulus. My world will be my friends and family. I’ll send food to the refugees.
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